As I was getting ready for work this morning, something popped into my head. I am an angry person. One of the topics for the Blog Hop asked a question. "What is holding me back from going deeper in my relationship with God?" At this moment, in this time in my life, it is anger. But it isn't anger at God. It isn't even anger at unfortunate events in my life like the death of my dad or the fact that I am an unmarried 30-something with no prospects on the horizon.
It is the little things that get me so riled up. Drivers who cuts me off in traffic. People standing in the middle of the aisle at the grocery store. Work situations that I have no control over. These little things that may be annoyances to anyone seem to push me over the edge and I internalize it, making them bigger than what they really are.
Know this, my beloved brothers: let every person be quick to hear slow to speak, slow to anger; for the anger of man does not produce the righteousness of God.
James 1:19, 20 (ESV)
This attitude is doing nothing for me. And it is doing nothing for God. My anger is getting the better of me and allowing wrong thoughts to run through my head and incorrect actions that dishonor God. My anger is keeping me from saying yes to God.
Even in acknowledging my issue with anger, I feel like a weight has been lifted off my chest. There may be something much bigger lurking underneath the surface that I will still need to completely surrender to God, but my anger needs to be controlled.
I surrender my anger to a Holy Father who loves me.
Palms up!
